Working Thru my Fear of Abandonment
by KA
(Florida)
Please tell me this will get easier. Even though I thought by the time I was 52 years old I wouldn't be so worked up about a man who doesn't call. Or that I wouldn't be involved, yet again, with a man who is totally not good for me. Or that I wouldn't call him constantly for him to reassure me of his love for me. Or that I wouldn't let a man be so mean to me.
Can anyone here relate to any of this? I don't know where else to turn. I am afraid to call my friends anymore. They are sick to death of my constant emotional tyrades. And, I can't say I blame them.
So, I am brand new here. I am a basket of raw emotions right now. I even called my therapist at 9 am on a Sunday morning.
Now what?
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If you are open to an alternative type of therapy, many people find relief in doing sessions with me.
There are also several pages on the site that offer introductory self-help.
You have at least hit the point of self-awareness. You can at least sit and face all your feelings and physical sensations when you are triggered. You can mindfully observe and attend rather than run away from your triggers by reacting/acting.
Practice awareness that the main thing that is happening is purely within you and that YOU, your higher consciousness, is much bigger and stronger and abiding than the passing pain sensations.
with love
Laura