Trying to figure out myself

Feb 15, 2010

I know how some of that feels
by: anonymous

Amy,

well I think it's awesome that you are at least able to see what you want to change in yourself. You are so awesome for that, and because of it you'll probably do awesome things. It always sucks to go what we've gone through (my father sexually abused me in my teen years) but at least every human has the choice to work through the hurt they have from everything and give their future what they're past never gave to them.

I've had a hard time in relationships, difficulty trusting good people, but it is possible.

I also know exactly what it feels like to get out into life and feel like you are way behind. It's the story of my life.

I'm don't currently spend a whole lot of time with my family, after the court date sending my father to prison, I don't talk to my mother a whole lot because she is still so numb to everything, and she still is holding onto my dad I think. It's the worst feeling of abandonment and rejection, and I've had to hold myself up while standing against my dad (luckily I did have friends that were very supportive of me) because my mother wasn't at all.

I hope you are able to work through the things you need to. Look for the people that you feel hold value in their lives, and become friends with the sort of people that hold the values that you yourself hope to hold now and in the future. That's one thing that's helped me a lot.

Family isn't judged by blood, but by the friends who hold you up and care about you. I've found that my truest family are the people that do support me. That don't take me for granted and manipulate me. I know that you can find that too, and maybe in the future you'll be able to have some sort of closure with your family. Sometimes It's okay to take a break though.

I'm 19 years old, and I've had to take a good two years to just clear my head. The hurt isn't gone, but it gradually does get better, and I know that as an adult I can hold myself to the standards that I need to, and that I know that by loving myself, ultimately that is my gift to society, because when I'm truly happy and confident...well you get it.

your friend,
karralineisyourfriend@gmail.com

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Amy, well I think it's awesome that you are at least able to see what you want to change in yourself. You are so awesome for that, and because of it you'll probably do awesome things. It always sucks to go what we've gone through (my father sexually abused me in my teen years) but at least every human has the choice to work through the hurt they have from everything and give their future what they're past never gave to them. I've had a hard time in relationships, difficulty trusting good people, but it is possible. I also know exactly what it feels like to get out into life and feel like you are way behind. It's the story of my life. I'm don't currently spend a whole lot of time with my family, after the court date sending my father to prison, I don't talk to my mother a whole lot because she is still so numb to everything, and she still is holding onto my dad I think. It's the worst feeling of abandonment and rejection, and I've had to hold myself up while standing against my dad (luckily I did have friends that were very supportive of me) because my mother wasn't at all. I hope you are able to work through the things you need to. Look for the people that you feel hold value in their lives, and become friends with the sort of people that hold the values that you yourself hope to hold now and in the future. That's one thing that's helped me a lot. Family isn't judged by blood, but by the friends who hold you up and care about you. I've found that my truest family are the people that do support me. That don't take me for granted and manipulate me. I know that you can find that too, and maybe in the future you'll be able to have some sort of closure with your family. Sometimes It's okay to take a break though. I'm 19 years old, and I've had to take a good two years to just clear my head. The hurt isn't gone, but it gradually does get better, and I know that as an adult I can hold myself to the standards that I need to, and that I know that by loving myself, ultimately that is my gift to society, because when I'm truly happy and confident...well you get it. your friend, karralineisyourfriend@gmail.com

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