The feelings just keep coming back...

When I was 5, my dad left. I never really heard my parents fighting and it kind of came as a surprise to me. My most vivid image from my childhood is my dad's car leaving packed to the brim and me waving out the window and him not waving back. He moved not too far away and remarried fairly quickly. I took to my young stepmom because she was fun, but my dad was distant during that once a month visit. Although he moved 5 mins from my mom's he never called or came to games or anything growing up. Just that one weekend that I dreaded every month. When I was 13 I found out that my dad had left me for his girlfriend. (She is now my stepmom and I loved her for so many years, now I find out she was the reason) I have now been married for 11 years and have such a fear that my husband is going to leave that I almost obsessively look for reasons for him to go. My self confidence is gone, I never think that I am a good enough mother or wife. I have asked God to just let me go...sometimes the pain is too much. I imagine him leaving or cheating and I can actually see this in my mind and feel the emotions of the pain...How do I get past this. I love my husband and he is getting fed up, he can't understand. I try to explain but it is SO painful. I will lose the life I have if I don't get help...where do I start?!?
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Good heavens~! I know EXACTLY what you mean, my story is different but my personal experience and what it did to me is very similar. You experienced a deep trauma mixed with one of the deepest losses you could. You have not been able to adequately resolve your grief because it is tied together with trauma. Trauma leaves us FROZEN in many ways.

This sounds self serving but it's the truth. I take a stand that the work I do, called Resonance Repatterning, is hands down the most effective thing you can do. You CAN get to the other side and be a normal happy woman. You can find your inner core strength and source. You can be in a healthy, thriving, free relationship.

I do phone/skype sessions all over the world and charge low fees. However, you can also look for a practitioner to see in person.

You can do it. Expect to~!
with love
Laura