Forgive me if this is preachy but he does see your insecurities, he just doesn't care if you have insecurities. He really loves you, that's why he tells you, you are wonderful. He just wants you to believe it too. But you are choosing not to right now.
I woke up thinking about this song and you around four this morning. I don't know everything about the characters of this play, Les Miserables, but these words are from a character Cosette, I believe a little girl who just wants to be loved.
On My Own
And now I'm all alone again, no where to go no one to turn to, I did not want your money sir, I came out here cause I was told to, And now the night is near, And I can make believe he's here.
Sometimes I walk alone at night When everybody else is sleeping I think of him and then I'm happy With the company I'm keeping The city goes to bed And I can live inside my head.
On my own Pretending he's beside me All alone, I walk with him till morning Without him I feel his arms around me And when I lose my way I close my eyes And he has found me
In the rain the pavement shines like silver All the lights are misty in the river In the darkness, the trees are full of starlight And all I see is him and me for ever and forever
And I know it's only in my mind That I'm talking to myself and not to him And although I know that he is blind Still I say, there's a way for us
I love him But when the night is over He is gone, the river's just a river Without him the world around me changes The trees are bare and everywhere The streets are full of strangers
I love him But every day I'm learning All my life I've only been pretending Without me his world will go on turning A world that's full of happiness That I have never known!
I love him I love him I love him But only on my own.
Apr 24, 2009
Fear of Abandoment ( Healing) by: Jeff in Texas
Dear Misty,
If I may be very direct and to the point, you still believe that you are not worthy of love, and being treated with kindness and compassion. You said it all with one simple sentence ??because I don't want him to think I have too many hangups and leave me.? It doesn?t matter how many hang ups you have. They just don?t matter. What matters is, are you willing to handle them head on and find the healing you need? You have to make that decision. Once you make it and ask God for help, the miracles will start. Read Psalm.
You are destined to struggle with this the rest of your life, until you make a definite, strong, powerfu decision, that this is it, ?I will not live another day this way.? Once you decide that and ask God for help, he will send people your way to help you, lead you to helpful books, audio programs, and speak to you in your heart, himself, and teach you what to do.
If you don?t, your husband will suffer, and you will suffer, you even risk divorce somewhere down the line. My desire is not to scare you, or think it is impossible, because it is not. Jesus said, ?All things are possible to she who believes.? Also, us ?with God, nothing is impossible.? I have been healed of 32 years of feelings of unworthiness and healed of obsessive-compulsive disorder and anxiety, so this can happen to you. Your husband to be deserves it, you deserve it, your kids deserve it. Don?t let anything hold you back from the answers, and become determined that nothing, even the worst thing you can imagine will keep you from giving it everything you got, your whole heart, then all heaven will come to your aid. Read Luke 4:18. Jesus came to set the captives free. Ask God, if he?s real, if Jesus is who he says he is, to come help you, and He will.
