Fear of Abandonment - Excited by the Future? by: Laura (webmaster) responds
An unsafe home life take a huge toll. Even more important is that your mother chose that man for a husband and as a father for you. I don't mean to accuse your mother of wrong doing. What it illustrates is where she was in her self-worth etc. For good and for bad, we do entrain with and resonate with our parents. They model how to be for us even if we reject them. That means that we sort of --get in sync with them-- or have a lot patterns in common with them, until we do the healing work that breaks us free. That alone is enough for sessions!!
You sound like you have your whole life in front of you. I hope you can feel excited by the mystery of your future as you discover who YOU are as a complete individual apart from your family. And also as a ray of, or extension of, your family. I hope for you that you enjoy the challenges life brings you, and that you always choose what enhances your life and what supports your needs and well-being.
It sounds like you have some grief work to do. There has been a lot of loss, and I mean more than by death. Let yourself feel your pain so that you can be cleansed of it and start fresh.
