Depression Poems - DID I CHOOSE

by Margaret Parker
(virginia)

Depression Poems

Did I choose this life
with all this strife?
Did I choose to burrow
and hide my sorrow?
Did I choose the parents I had
knowing they were going to be bad?
Would I choose it all again
I feel like I have failed and sinned.

Could I have changed any of this
with just maybe one wish;
or could I have screamed "help me"
can't you see
I am being abused,
for sex I am used.

Good parents they are not,
everyday they fought.
Could they have been shot
for not wanting me?
Everything is haunting me.

I wasted half my life
rummaging thru this strife.
I worked on being whole
and taking back what they stole.
I wound up forgiving with my heart
which I should have done from the start.

It took so long
to work thru what was wrong.
I made it thru
and now I can do
what I'v always wanted to.
I can be free
to live with me.
just like I am.(2007)