Childhood Abandonment Issues - mother

by maggie
(nsw aust)

I was left with elderly people while my parents went away to work. I was about two or three at the time. They would visit once a month. The couple that looked after me could not have children. The man went to work and I was left with the woman.

She was very cruel. I remember kneeling on hard corn for punishment for hours and hours staring at the corner of the wall. She used to shove soap up my arse to go to the toilet. I stayed there a long time.

My parents eventually came to get me. They were no better, I was beaten with everything, now I am 50 and I don't know if I will ever forget as my life has been severely affected.

I have tried many healing methods. I have been married and divorced, I have two children and I hope I am a better mother to them. I never give up.

My children have taught me unconditional love and at times I could not respond as I am numb to feelings of love. I know there is a light at the end of the tunnel and I hope one day to be able to enter into a relationship. If that never hapens then I will continue to study all forms of emotional healing.

The journey has been hazardous and full of thorns but thru all that I occasionally find a sweet smelling rose.

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Thank you for writing, Maggie. I think YOU are a sweet smelling rose and I hope someday you do feel the river of love that flows through you. If you haven't tried it yet, I recommend Resonance Repatterning - a very deep emotional healing system that I use and love. Laura
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